the thrash-hold

i'm about to reveal
what i thought i ll never know
it would be a mistake
to think this sound jargon
oh! something i say...i pardon

m about to prove
beyond the shadow of doubt
that play a much larger part
in your life 'dedicated
than you've ever thought!!

both, you and the one in you
made instant assumptions
based on the way you look
& its impossible to change
those assumptions, once they are ingrain...

so you might as well intercept these one's
...and control them as weapon
but that s d mistake you made
to not to bring up what was laid!!!
so to think this may sound jargon..
but i assure you its not
oh! something i said..i ask for pardon!!

i can show you how to blue
and flow through your sensory flu
but you must get ready to understand..
what it looks really mean?
or what part is really gonna stand!!!

so how can you reclaim
your right on my name
when you blew off the chemistry
& the charisma of desire
& the one that i used to admire!!!

but den again you may not know me
from the sack of your prejudice
so, why should you even want
to take my word and roll on the dice!!

now the reason m telling you dis
is not to brag by any means...
m no better no worse den you
but i crossed the line & got in some few!!

and this combined set of insinuation
i've been privy to define
gave me an unique advantage
being able to see in between line!!!

so when it come to your presence
it works in the existence. as whole
scheme of sub-conscious melodrama
to well pampered dream and goal!!

for now it really does not matter to me
as you riding on rigorous emotional crew
so never once m gonna bash you
for being in whatever..the scape of you
but just by my aisle...you are free to be in
just to take you out of your lobby
& thats true..not just backyard philosophy!!

now i want you to think about for a minute
'cause it represents the exact opposite
the opposite of what you used to think
.
.
look for the profound opportunity
be ready to move and loose out on vanity
opposite to the direction of majority see them
be sure and bright this time...
its not just a game !!!!!

katthakali...CHOTU !!!

the most unexpected day in my life
just so awesome
you spell out ur name so loud
and u became some!!
tend to remember your face
and it came and shown
now i tend to forget u
but memories aint still gone!!!

u shared ur dates on lunch
i thought u care
that stored fat in bunch
later u told me that u ate 'em
very rare!!
the administartion water cooler launced
an idea in me to admire u more
it kept on goin all through the semester
it was so obvious and i was so sure!!!

den it came the day of PIRATES
reached an hour before
& i waited
for u at the GATES!!
movie started...was hoping that u ll sit next to me
but u chose ur seat
near stupid SOCRATES!!
throughout d movie
was professing what to say & what to share
fellow mates making fun of me...
...bastards they dare!!!

entire city knew what was on
the only ignorant was you
you took things casual and flowing
as if the things happening are not new!!
der lied a challenge for me
what to do so that u ll notice
but thanks to my dumbness
i wasted my time just doing practise !!

den again one unexpected day came
even more awesome...dis time beautiful
you ask me whether i like someone
& my mind was full....
drank 3 glass of water
but inside me was so warm
i thought i ll express my feelings
as i saw..in doing so..no harm !!
i told you yes i like someone
someone really cute & someone outta few
nevertheless u dont mind
but that someone is adorable you!!!

you asked me to wait till evening
but you didnt keep it lingering
in the evening on beautiful lawn
you said yes while my face was in frawn!!!

and den it started a beautiful beginning
which i thought ll never end
& as d days passed and so years
i became sure and without fear!!!

i still remember some of your stupid things :
"talking to tree
some vivid lines
you thought all birds
are just so mine
the cassatta cut was boon
one cup & 2 spoon
dry fruits i ate
and u licked d cream
cant forget that
even in dreams

one thing was on
ur dance goes on
no need of beats
no need of harmony
oh god!!!u can tap
even on symphony? !!
i thought that was it
oh i missed a thing
oh damn it..such a "ping"
that all time u "sing"

pani puri on roll
vada-pav on froze
& den walnut pudding
c'mon its a heavy dose!!

at 3 in d night
u wanted to see me
and so do i
so i dare and my bike s on
and in just that fear
my bike stopped in flair...

on a frozen night
m the only one
& i acted "the Dark Knight"
the bark of the dogs
at ur granny's place
scared the hell outta me
what kept going me
was your just so grace!!

i still remember
all those stupid things
what i miss the most
that in morning you sing
.
.
flowers in the drawer
those surprise visits
writing those stupid letters
& a heart shaped pillow gift...!!!
charades and a magic slate
puzzles on tissues
damn it we were idiots
even destroyed the plate!!"

now i miss that wait
that wait of the morning call
that wait at times u fall
that wait of goodnight kiss
that wait of our intimate swings
that wait...
that wait now i miss!!!

when my head used to ache
you hold my hands
and press my fingers hard
.
.
but now my heart aches
cant see now
tell me what to press hard...
because now i dont know ...how ?? !!

now..every street at the corner
every clock on the wall
leads me to may way
ticking grows it tall

slow down ur pace
to see me clear
cause deep down ur face
wrinkles now appear!!!

the problem is not in me
the matter is with you
beyond the horizon
you refuse to have a view !!!!