loha

mulakat kuch yun hui ek chitra se
jiska koi kalakaar na tha
tha to bas ek sawaal
jiska koi jawaab na tha !!
us sawaal ki thi kai kadiyaan
aur bhi kadiyaan judti chali gai
magar us ka poornaviraam na tha !!

khush tha me apne shehar me
jab usne poocha tha mujhse ye
bhram toota tha mera
aur bikhree thi saari sharm!!!
bataai jab usne apni baate...kuch ese apne kisse
jab aaya tha vo mere shehar
kai sapne sajae apne gaon se
aur aate hi barsa tha uspe qahar !!

sooni sadak aur sannate ko dekh ke vo chauka
sainiko ko tainaat usne har jagah dekha
kuch neta ke kadam chatne vale kutto ko dekha usne...
cheekh cheekh ke naare lagate dekha usne
"kya shaanti hai - kya shaanti hai"
vo bola - shaanti kahan ye to curfew hai
maar maar k chup karaya gaya use
aur bataya gaya
"stheethi naazook-magar niyantran me hai" !!

dekha usne machino ko naare lagate hue
"khushalee ka mausam hai aur kya din hai"
sun k phir se chauk ke bola vo
k din kahan ye to raat hai
phir jhad kar bataya gaya use
"ye raat nahi-aaj din me chaand hai" !!!

sadak par pade nange bachche ko dekha usne
uske lohe k katore me-kuch bikhra loha dekha usne
lohe ke post k neeche lohe k patre par kuch likha hua dekha usne
"desh me sukh shanti aur aman laenge"
aur us hi lohe k patre ki aad me
lohe k auzaaro ka jattha dekha usne !!!

khali khidki dekhi usne jiska glass toota tha
bas ek lohe ki kadi, magar koi nivaas na tha
lohe ki gaadiyo me insaano ko dekha usne
man jala uska kyo k stheethi uski kamzor thi
gaon me sirf-lohe ki cycle thi !!
lohe ki saliyon par makaan bante dekha usne
gaon me uske sar par cement ki chatt bhi na thi!!

unche chattaano ko lohe k kapde me quaid dekha usne
dekha usne lohe ne roka paththro ka fisalna
aur insaan ko lohe me baitha dekh
unhi raasto par, chain se jate dekha usne!!
kudrat ko lohe ki jakad me dekh, chauka tha vo sheher me
aur ishwar ko bhi, lohe ke darwaajo me band dekha usne!!

yehi sab dekh....use yaad aai vo baat
kaksha 7 ki vo kahani :
lohe ki hathkadi aur quaidi no. 8'
yaad aai use vo baat jo kahi thi kisi thanedaar ne
k lohe ki salaakho me quaid hai mujrim
aur salaakho k is taraf...jakda hua hai insaan !!

pata chal gai use ye baat
k yahan har kisi ka hai yehi haal
insaano k khwaisho ki koi keemat nahi hai yahan
bas lohe ki kursi par baithe
loha hi pooch raha hai sawaal!!!
sawaal khud se nahi, sirf doosron se
loha hi lohe ko kat-ta hai
bas ye hi hai is waqt ka niyam
aur har loha bas karta hai yehi ek kaam!!!

ese kai khayal uthe the uske man me
jis se vo udaas tha
magar jaate samay vo man se shaant aur ullas tha
maine us se uski khushi ka raaz poocha
kya hai vo mere sheher ki khoobiyan ?? maine poocha
has k bola vo insaan main khush hun kyo ki
pata chal gai mujhe
mujhe mere gaon ki khubiyan!!!

vo jaan gaya tha ye baat
ke yahan lohe ki gaadiyon me bhi
loha hi sawaar hota hai
socha vo k yahan to loha sirf lohe ka aadhaar leta hai
gaon me to usne khud loha pighalta dekha hai!!
lohe k pighalte koi bhaap nahi aati
magar jab maasoom dil me maayusi k khayalo k morche ka bol bala hota hai..
us bhaap se har loha pighalta hai !!!

.....to be continued

the thrash-hold

i'm about to reveal
what i thought i ll never know
it would be a mistake
to think this sound jargon
oh! something i say...i pardon

m about to prove
beyond the shadow of doubt
that play a much larger part
in your life 'dedicated
than you've ever thought!!

both, you and the one in you
made instant assumptions
based on the way you look
& its impossible to change
those assumptions, once they are ingrain...

so you might as well intercept these one's
...and control them as weapon
but that s d mistake you made
to not to bring up what was laid!!!
so to think this may sound jargon..
but i assure you its not
oh! something i said..i ask for pardon!!

i can show you how to blue
and flow through your sensory flu
but you must get ready to understand..
what it looks really mean?
or what part is really gonna stand!!!

so how can you reclaim
your right on my name
when you blew off the chemistry
& the charisma of desire
& the one that i used to admire!!!

but den again you may not know me
from the sack of your prejudice
so, why should you even want
to take my word and roll on the dice!!

now the reason m telling you dis
is not to brag by any means...
m no better no worse den you
but i crossed the line & got in some few!!

and this combined set of insinuation
i've been privy to define
gave me an unique advantage
being able to see in between line!!!

so when it come to your presence
it works in the existence. as whole
scheme of sub-conscious melodrama
to well pampered dream and goal!!

for now it really does not matter to me
as you riding on rigorous emotional crew
so never once m gonna bash you
for being in whatever..the scape of you
but just by my aisle...you are free to be in
just to take you out of your lobby
& thats true..not just backyard philosophy!!

now i want you to think about for a minute
'cause it represents the exact opposite
the opposite of what you used to think
.
.
look for the profound opportunity
be ready to move and loose out on vanity
opposite to the direction of majority see them
be sure and bright this time...
its not just a game !!!!!

katthakali...CHOTU !!!

the most unexpected day in my life
just so awesome
you spell out ur name so loud
and u became some!!
tend to remember your face
and it came and shown
now i tend to forget u
but memories aint still gone!!!

u shared ur dates on lunch
i thought u care
that stored fat in bunch
later u told me that u ate 'em
very rare!!
the administartion water cooler launced
an idea in me to admire u more
it kept on goin all through the semester
it was so obvious and i was so sure!!!

den it came the day of PIRATES
reached an hour before
& i waited
for u at the GATES!!
movie started...was hoping that u ll sit next to me
but u chose ur seat
near stupid SOCRATES!!
throughout d movie
was professing what to say & what to share
fellow mates making fun of me...
...bastards they dare!!!

entire city knew what was on
the only ignorant was you
you took things casual and flowing
as if the things happening are not new!!
der lied a challenge for me
what to do so that u ll notice
but thanks to my dumbness
i wasted my time just doing practise !!

den again one unexpected day came
even more awesome...dis time beautiful
you ask me whether i like someone
& my mind was full....
drank 3 glass of water
but inside me was so warm
i thought i ll express my feelings
as i saw..in doing so..no harm !!
i told you yes i like someone
someone really cute & someone outta few
nevertheless u dont mind
but that someone is adorable you!!!

you asked me to wait till evening
but you didnt keep it lingering
in the evening on beautiful lawn
you said yes while my face was in frawn!!!

and den it started a beautiful beginning
which i thought ll never end
& as d days passed and so years
i became sure and without fear!!!

i still remember some of your stupid things :
"talking to tree
some vivid lines
you thought all birds
are just so mine
the cassatta cut was boon
one cup & 2 spoon
dry fruits i ate
and u licked d cream
cant forget that
even in dreams

one thing was on
ur dance goes on
no need of beats
no need of harmony
oh god!!!u can tap
even on symphony? !!
i thought that was it
oh i missed a thing
oh damn it..such a "ping"
that all time u "sing"

pani puri on roll
vada-pav on froze
& den walnut pudding
c'mon its a heavy dose!!

at 3 in d night
u wanted to see me
and so do i
so i dare and my bike s on
and in just that fear
my bike stopped in flair...

on a frozen night
m the only one
& i acted "the Dark Knight"
the bark of the dogs
at ur granny's place
scared the hell outta me
what kept going me
was your just so grace!!

i still remember
all those stupid things
what i miss the most
that in morning you sing
.
.
flowers in the drawer
those surprise visits
writing those stupid letters
& a heart shaped pillow gift...!!!
charades and a magic slate
puzzles on tissues
damn it we were idiots
even destroyed the plate!!"

now i miss that wait
that wait of the morning call
that wait at times u fall
that wait of goodnight kiss
that wait of our intimate swings
that wait...
that wait now i miss!!!

when my head used to ache
you hold my hands
and press my fingers hard
.
.
but now my heart aches
cant see now
tell me what to press hard...
because now i dont know ...how ?? !!

now..every street at the corner
every clock on the wall
leads me to may way
ticking grows it tall

slow down ur pace
to see me clear
cause deep down ur face
wrinkles now appear!!!

the problem is not in me
the matter is with you
beyond the horizon
you refuse to have a view !!!!

the shadow of two tears!!!

and when the light goes in
few come back and few refracts in
we see what comes back in sheer
to see what passes through...we fear
something similar is what i felt
this is the story
of the shadow of my two tear!!!

those slips in and reaches your cave
emotions of salt at times they gave
no one adores who keeps them and save
some call him naive and rude in behave!!
but to me who puts in an act like that
is a man of code...honour and brave!!!!

why people fail to understand those few
just because they dont express and hide their dew
the drop of emotion and the rise of feeling
they do realize in every pick of dwelling
but what at times they get in return
mixed feelings and left with confessions...
confessions to themselves not to the peers...
cause they soaked in...the bubble in their sphere...
& thats wheb they create
the story to appreciate
which was once scripted on the stone of imagination
gets dried up in the process of creation!!!

but that does not mean
that they dont feel a thing
thats wrong and sad for others
as they think that u are detach from the string!!!

the complex web, if thats what you see,
is the play of simple lines and grid...
it deforms when strong force hits in
but the grip of each other...never slips in..
it takes time for each block to reform
but are intact ....strong eith simple norm...
so dont judge them as wrong
.....and stubborn born...
out of the ugly fact...
man made of right snd wrong...

as one never know...what they can take in...
all your sadness..but will never grim..
so dont just see with an eye you are fond..
discover another world....just by looking beyond!!!
and there you ll see...
the cute stories of three men and two bear...
& a light in the shadow of two tear!!!!!!!!!!!!

the shadow of two tears!!!

twisted watch

yeah, i know wht i did
unaware of wrong or right
undeserved thou suffered a lot
all through the dark and bright...
you choose your way
& i stand still
hoping you to come back
but u stuck up to ur will!!
monopoly of the silence
broke the thousand words code
loneliness built the wall
where, i was cuffed abode!!!

naturally its the middle of the night
empty and turbulent
stumbling through the fright
wondering what made me skeptical and pale
its that thought - love s a fairy tale
my heart aches for such a horrible mess
the steamy grains of wood
& unworthy praise!!!

but soon i observed
what i was turning into
one thing i was sure
the good guy in me was pure
truth is you need to be lost
at times, walk through the thorns
solitude it cost...
sometimes follow your shadow...
its not the dark that you fear
appears...elongates...and gets milky
thats where....one ll find a lost key!!!
its a process you have to walk at times
and u realize its not the fault of the night
...if you dont see
through your inner light...!!!

so den i grew...as fast as i could
i appreciate your effort
& a thank u i should
for sharing my space
for being generous at pace
at this point that now i exist
at a stage of perpetual hope & practice
so now i can, for sure, say
the law of universe, as per se
that you are now longing
longing for me to come back
to smile at you to gaze into you
to hold you at times...
just like
strings that creates a melody
attached to their chime
i know, now u miss
all of my those stupid addictions...
dont expect me...i ll come thou
as a surprise...& not prediction!!!

find a world for me!!!

find a world for me

where everyone is free

free to say anything

to hear and to see!!

where his thoughts are his wings

and friends boast him to flee!!!

find a world for me

where true love is

neither physical nor romantic

an acceptance...of what it is

where my best friend lives in me...

the science of consciousness

and the act of thee

come with no bounds and limits

so when it comes to me

it is company...even in three!!!

find a world for me

where none is forced to see

to see what others want you

thrashing your dreams...sticking in glue

free 'em up and let them sigh

through soul harmony and not by eye!!

pour in the courage in every cry

dont be shy if you wanna fly

be ready to pay off anything to what it takes

till your last beat, beauty and grace

cause what you give

comes back to you

with smile and eye, fresh and new

....to free the one

who s locked in you!!

"L" string

empty roads

mystic echoes

lonely walk

shadow grows!!!

calm smile

identity for a while

replaced by a glittering glow

Just a life.....

let it flow!!!

It's a guest

here for a rest

will take you

through all its quest!!!

so..sing a song

song of love

every heart...sing along

the one

sung by dove above!!!

miraculous healing

special feeling

believe in Him

stumble the grim !!!

what it takes

more it gives

expect the least

enjoy the feast!!!!

replace the sorrow

by the joy u borrow

take everything

that makes you blue...

even when sad

sitting with no clue!!!!

believe in your gut

run after your passion

do what u like

fame will walk beside!!!

flip the coin

see magic in air

strum the chords

& crowd will stare!!!

a mile long stone wall

in a lush green center park

porous sandstone wall making its path

nothing would seem perfect

with you and me...taking a walk.

started from silent steps

you look amazed by scenic beauty...

while i was busy adoring you.

thinking of all the gradients of colours...

that are just boasted in you.

gradually we started exchanging words

the words...that didn't have a sound

with some romantic gestures....

that were so profound.

felt like the bubble sphere created a world around

where my "i" world took you all the way round

loved watching you, your hand moves

and you talking to a tree...

where we can dance and fly

as there s no one to see.

its just.......

you and me!!!

yet not a spoken word, yet not a gentle touch

still i felt that i know you...

since a century or much.

i was certain that something...

something s gonna change my life soon

and there it came...your smile as a disguised boon!!!

since long i was looking for you

trying to sense you around in every blue

blabbered a lot in that one search of yours...

YOU ARE THE ONE...your silent words make me believe!!

a long walk

walking down the streets

i heard clusters of voices

looking forth and backwards, to figure who mourn

but, here i am, walking all alone!!

every step of mine

asked me several some's

when u understand and gave your shoulder to everyone

why....in your tough time...

walking besides you is none!!!

saw my reflection, every-now and everywhere

thoughts supported 'em as they were always there

i thought i got the answer

don't trust the mean world ... it will lead you no-where.

just your instincts...& rests are pass by

will come and go,

steal every inch of my

will get into the dreams...

with high hopes, smile and joy

but one fine day

will go....without even uttering a sweet bye.

this walk is not till the corner of the street

its a long walk with many cross-by's

don't....just don't settle

or get adjust or get satisfy

until you find

your reflection in someone's eye.

a beep

heartache or lost relationship

is terrible and a greatest pinch....

that i used to believe and that i used to think

until one fine morning... my cell ring!!!

it was 5 in the morning when my cell beep

trying to grope it in half asleep...

didnt remember where i kept it

but was tracking it from the coming sound

waving my hand right and round and miraculously

that thing i found!!!

by the time i could answer

the sound stopped echoing

suddenly a msg appear

it was blank...with so many tears!!!

i struggled to get up &

called my friend

was afraid of what i might hear

sometime..when you dont know..its much easier!!!

indeed, sometimes God plays jokes on people

& often we are shown of what we fear

but i must gather courage and call him

as he is very good friend of mine...

thats what i thought and felt at that time!!!

after so many rings he picked up my call

he sound perfect and i sense no fall

i asked him whats the matter...

he replied, just get fresh and come out of house...

make it fast and dont waste time in packing...

my dear old friend....we are going for a trekking!!!

i stood up from my bench and i

straighten up my shirt cleaning up the cuffs...

head towards the bookstore

to find a book on love stories and stuffs.

taking a book of the shelf

i found myself imagine...

not with the words in the book

but soft writing in the margin.

cover page.. right side.. i saw a fame

discovered her at previous owner's name

i tracked her down and spent almost a week...

with no fear and with no shame.

i wrote a letter and i introduced myself

and told her the story of her soft writing...

that how it reflected a thoughtful soul..

an artistic life and an insightful mind.

till few months we grew to know each other

through mails and msgs and sometimes letter..

a romance was budding & the spring time was on

i invite her over a coffee and gift her white feather.

meeting time....

a gorgeous woman i saw...coming toward me

a very cute face and figure long and slim...

black hairs lay back in curls

from her soft and delicate ears.

lips and chin had gentle firmness

lemon yellow suit with high heels

i starred towards her and went eyes wide shut...

i lost my thought and serene was the feel...

was waiting for her to speak a word

which i thought will shape my destiny and fate...

she came close to me and whisper in my ear

get up sweety....its getting late!!!

white wings

white wings

a peaceful mind and a pure breath..

subtle to control....so soft to take

nurture the real one, the one in you...

to the extreme...that it could not fake.

set your step on a journey

and enjoy the process...

be a Rome in Roman

but don't get obsesses

take a pride in what you do...

with spirits high...never let it go suppress

walk in the sun with a bare foot

experience life...understand the truth

transition is not the only phase....

relax!!! reception is equally a nail and a tooth.

don't look high when asked where s sky...'

feel its presence always in front of your eye

for those, who say we believe in Him

ask them, why in knowing yourself, you feel shy!!!

look in the mirror with head straight

if not, confront the mistakes that you made...

don't just listen don't just see

sense it completely...even the directions are eight!!!

don't be afraid and make a mistake

that is your asset... that is your stake...

its not too late...i can reach heights anyhow...

even 80 year old can say and start of now!!!

i open my eyes

found myself in your arms

silk touch soothing voice

waking me up from your dream

so untouched...a treasure i found!!!

that last kiss of yours

that drip of tear

devastated by a thought

of loosing you - a fear!!!

you wrap your arms around me

and i feel secure

subtle down my anger, with that,

one touch of yours!!!

to find you in reality than dream

was my final destiny

but something went wrong

dreams broken apart

and only i can hear is our screams!!!

now, on my journey leaving all behind

to complete the frame

the picture i left behind!!!

soft and slow....

with my legs on window sill

i watch the fall

hues of yellow and shades of blue

makes everything...soft and slow....

i saw an angel coming to me...it was you,

white frills calm smile

stirring the surrounding

with something blue!!!

from the whispers

to the screams of lust we cried

everything fades away

but, the melody you sang in the sky!!!

the mist of you

takes me into trance

blindly following you

to every move, to every step of your dance!!!

soft touch of yours

ripples in me through

drifting me through a journey and now...

i am into you

nothing else could lift my mind so high

with exchanging souls and meeting bodies

the time wraps us into the frame of eternity

with the beats so high...but body so still!!!

soft and slowly...i saw your shimmering eyes

hot breath of yours....caressing and whispering

tonight you mean everything to me

and you are completely mine!!!

a pause in the moment

willing to live big in it

calms down the stirring...

inside a satin

twisted and turned - two bodies into one

nothing can lead it and the moment can be taken over by none!!!

no more..not anymore...

i want to wake up from this perfect dream...

where hues of yellow and shades of blue

makes everything...soft and slow!!!