loha

mulakat kuch yun hui ek chitra se
jiska koi kalakaar na tha
tha to bas ek sawaal
jiska koi jawaab na tha !!
us sawaal ki thi kai kadiyaan
aur bhi kadiyaan judti chali gai
magar us ka poornaviraam na tha !!

khush tha me apne shehar me
jab usne poocha tha mujhse ye
bhram toota tha mera
aur bikhree thi saari sharm!!!
bataai jab usne apni baate...kuch ese apne kisse
jab aaya tha vo mere shehar
kai sapne sajae apne gaon se
aur aate hi barsa tha uspe qahar !!

sooni sadak aur sannate ko dekh ke vo chauka
sainiko ko tainaat usne har jagah dekha
kuch neta ke kadam chatne vale kutto ko dekha usne...
cheekh cheekh ke naare lagate dekha usne
"kya shaanti hai - kya shaanti hai"
vo bola - shaanti kahan ye to curfew hai
maar maar k chup karaya gaya use
aur bataya gaya
"stheethi naazook-magar niyantran me hai" !!

dekha usne machino ko naare lagate hue
"khushalee ka mausam hai aur kya din hai"
sun k phir se chauk ke bola vo
k din kahan ye to raat hai
phir jhad kar bataya gaya use
"ye raat nahi-aaj din me chaand hai" !!!

sadak par pade nange bachche ko dekha usne
uske lohe k katore me-kuch bikhra loha dekha usne
lohe ke post k neeche lohe k patre par kuch likha hua dekha usne
"desh me sukh shanti aur aman laenge"
aur us hi lohe k patre ki aad me
lohe k auzaaro ka jattha dekha usne !!!

khali khidki dekhi usne jiska glass toota tha
bas ek lohe ki kadi, magar koi nivaas na tha
lohe ki gaadiyo me insaano ko dekha usne
man jala uska kyo k stheethi uski kamzor thi
gaon me sirf-lohe ki cycle thi !!
lohe ki saliyon par makaan bante dekha usne
gaon me uske sar par cement ki chatt bhi na thi!!

unche chattaano ko lohe k kapde me quaid dekha usne
dekha usne lohe ne roka paththro ka fisalna
aur insaan ko lohe me baitha dekh
unhi raasto par, chain se jate dekha usne!!
kudrat ko lohe ki jakad me dekh, chauka tha vo sheher me
aur ishwar ko bhi, lohe ke darwaajo me band dekha usne!!

yehi sab dekh....use yaad aai vo baat
kaksha 7 ki vo kahani :
lohe ki hathkadi aur quaidi no. 8'
yaad aai use vo baat jo kahi thi kisi thanedaar ne
k lohe ki salaakho me quaid hai mujrim
aur salaakho k is taraf...jakda hua hai insaan !!

pata chal gai use ye baat
k yahan har kisi ka hai yehi haal
insaano k khwaisho ki koi keemat nahi hai yahan
bas lohe ki kursi par baithe
loha hi pooch raha hai sawaal!!!
sawaal khud se nahi, sirf doosron se
loha hi lohe ko kat-ta hai
bas ye hi hai is waqt ka niyam
aur har loha bas karta hai yehi ek kaam!!!

ese kai khayal uthe the uske man me
jis se vo udaas tha
magar jaate samay vo man se shaant aur ullas tha
maine us se uski khushi ka raaz poocha
kya hai vo mere sheher ki khoobiyan ?? maine poocha
has k bola vo insaan main khush hun kyo ki
pata chal gai mujhe
mujhe mere gaon ki khubiyan!!!

vo jaan gaya tha ye baat
ke yahan lohe ki gaadiyon me bhi
loha hi sawaar hota hai
socha vo k yahan to loha sirf lohe ka aadhaar leta hai
gaon me to usne khud loha pighalta dekha hai!!
lohe k pighalte koi bhaap nahi aati
magar jab maasoom dil me maayusi k khayalo k morche ka bol bala hota hai..
us bhaap se har loha pighalta hai !!!

.....to be continued

the thrash-hold

i'm about to reveal
what i thought i ll never know
it would be a mistake
to think this sound jargon
oh! something i say...i pardon

m about to prove
beyond the shadow of doubt
that play a much larger part
in your life 'dedicated
than you've ever thought!!

both, you and the one in you
made instant assumptions
based on the way you look
& its impossible to change
those assumptions, once they are ingrain...

so you might as well intercept these one's
...and control them as weapon
but that s d mistake you made
to not to bring up what was laid!!!
so to think this may sound jargon..
but i assure you its not
oh! something i said..i ask for pardon!!

i can show you how to blue
and flow through your sensory flu
but you must get ready to understand..
what it looks really mean?
or what part is really gonna stand!!!

so how can you reclaim
your right on my name
when you blew off the chemistry
& the charisma of desire
& the one that i used to admire!!!

but den again you may not know me
from the sack of your prejudice
so, why should you even want
to take my word and roll on the dice!!

now the reason m telling you dis
is not to brag by any means...
m no better no worse den you
but i crossed the line & got in some few!!

and this combined set of insinuation
i've been privy to define
gave me an unique advantage
being able to see in between line!!!

so when it come to your presence
it works in the existence. as whole
scheme of sub-conscious melodrama
to well pampered dream and goal!!

for now it really does not matter to me
as you riding on rigorous emotional crew
so never once m gonna bash you
for being in whatever..the scape of you
but just by my aisle...you are free to be in
just to take you out of your lobby
& thats true..not just backyard philosophy!!

now i want you to think about for a minute
'cause it represents the exact opposite
the opposite of what you used to think
.
.
look for the profound opportunity
be ready to move and loose out on vanity
opposite to the direction of majority see them
be sure and bright this time...
its not just a game !!!!!

katthakali...CHOTU !!!

the most unexpected day in my life
just so awesome
you spell out ur name so loud
and u became some!!
tend to remember your face
and it came and shown
now i tend to forget u
but memories aint still gone!!!

u shared ur dates on lunch
i thought u care
that stored fat in bunch
later u told me that u ate 'em
very rare!!
the administartion water cooler launced
an idea in me to admire u more
it kept on goin all through the semester
it was so obvious and i was so sure!!!

den it came the day of PIRATES
reached an hour before
& i waited
for u at the GATES!!
movie started...was hoping that u ll sit next to me
but u chose ur seat
near stupid SOCRATES!!
throughout d movie
was professing what to say & what to share
fellow mates making fun of me...
...bastards they dare!!!

entire city knew what was on
the only ignorant was you
you took things casual and flowing
as if the things happening are not new!!
der lied a challenge for me
what to do so that u ll notice
but thanks to my dumbness
i wasted my time just doing practise !!

den again one unexpected day came
even more awesome...dis time beautiful
you ask me whether i like someone
& my mind was full....
drank 3 glass of water
but inside me was so warm
i thought i ll express my feelings
as i saw..in doing so..no harm !!
i told you yes i like someone
someone really cute & someone outta few
nevertheless u dont mind
but that someone is adorable you!!!

you asked me to wait till evening
but you didnt keep it lingering
in the evening on beautiful lawn
you said yes while my face was in frawn!!!

and den it started a beautiful beginning
which i thought ll never end
& as d days passed and so years
i became sure and without fear!!!

i still remember some of your stupid things :
"talking to tree
some vivid lines
you thought all birds
are just so mine
the cassatta cut was boon
one cup & 2 spoon
dry fruits i ate
and u licked d cream
cant forget that
even in dreams

one thing was on
ur dance goes on
no need of beats
no need of harmony
oh god!!!u can tap
even on symphony? !!
i thought that was it
oh i missed a thing
oh damn it..such a "ping"
that all time u "sing"

pani puri on roll
vada-pav on froze
& den walnut pudding
c'mon its a heavy dose!!

at 3 in d night
u wanted to see me
and so do i
so i dare and my bike s on
and in just that fear
my bike stopped in flair...

on a frozen night
m the only one
& i acted "the Dark Knight"
the bark of the dogs
at ur granny's place
scared the hell outta me
what kept going me
was your just so grace!!

i still remember
all those stupid things
what i miss the most
that in morning you sing
.
.
flowers in the drawer
those surprise visits
writing those stupid letters
& a heart shaped pillow gift...!!!
charades and a magic slate
puzzles on tissues
damn it we were idiots
even destroyed the plate!!"

now i miss that wait
that wait of the morning call
that wait at times u fall
that wait of goodnight kiss
that wait of our intimate swings
that wait...
that wait now i miss!!!

when my head used to ache
you hold my hands
and press my fingers hard
.
.
but now my heart aches
cant see now
tell me what to press hard...
because now i dont know ...how ?? !!

now..every street at the corner
every clock on the wall
leads me to may way
ticking grows it tall

slow down ur pace
to see me clear
cause deep down ur face
wrinkles now appear!!!

the problem is not in me
the matter is with you
beyond the horizon
you refuse to have a view !!!!

the shadow of two tears!!!

and when the light goes in
few come back and few refracts in
we see what comes back in sheer
to see what passes through...we fear
something similar is what i felt
this is the story
of the shadow of my two tear!!!

those slips in and reaches your cave
emotions of salt at times they gave
no one adores who keeps them and save
some call him naive and rude in behave!!
but to me who puts in an act like that
is a man of code...honour and brave!!!!

why people fail to understand those few
just because they dont express and hide their dew
the drop of emotion and the rise of feeling
they do realize in every pick of dwelling
but what at times they get in return
mixed feelings and left with confessions...
confessions to themselves not to the peers...
cause they soaked in...the bubble in their sphere...
& thats wheb they create
the story to appreciate
which was once scripted on the stone of imagination
gets dried up in the process of creation!!!

but that does not mean
that they dont feel a thing
thats wrong and sad for others
as they think that u are detach from the string!!!

the complex web, if thats what you see,
is the play of simple lines and grid...
it deforms when strong force hits in
but the grip of each other...never slips in..
it takes time for each block to reform
but are intact ....strong eith simple norm...
so dont judge them as wrong
.....and stubborn born...
out of the ugly fact...
man made of right snd wrong...

as one never know...what they can take in...
all your sadness..but will never grim..
so dont just see with an eye you are fond..
discover another world....just by looking beyond!!!
and there you ll see...
the cute stories of three men and two bear...
& a light in the shadow of two tear!!!!!!!!!!!!

the shadow of two tears!!!

twisted watch

yeah, i know wht i did
unaware of wrong or right
undeserved thou suffered a lot
all through the dark and bright...
you choose your way
& i stand still
hoping you to come back
but u stuck up to ur will!!
monopoly of the silence
broke the thousand words code
loneliness built the wall
where, i was cuffed abode!!!

naturally its the middle of the night
empty and turbulent
stumbling through the fright
wondering what made me skeptical and pale
its that thought - love s a fairy tale
my heart aches for such a horrible mess
the steamy grains of wood
& unworthy praise!!!

but soon i observed
what i was turning into
one thing i was sure
the good guy in me was pure
truth is you need to be lost
at times, walk through the thorns
solitude it cost...
sometimes follow your shadow...
its not the dark that you fear
appears...elongates...and gets milky
thats where....one ll find a lost key!!!
its a process you have to walk at times
and u realize its not the fault of the night
...if you dont see
through your inner light...!!!

so den i grew...as fast as i could
i appreciate your effort
& a thank u i should
for sharing my space
for being generous at pace
at this point that now i exist
at a stage of perpetual hope & practice
so now i can, for sure, say
the law of universe, as per se
that you are now longing
longing for me to come back
to smile at you to gaze into you
to hold you at times...
just like
strings that creates a melody
attached to their chime
i know, now u miss
all of my those stupid addictions...
dont expect me...i ll come thou
as a surprise...& not prediction!!!

find a world for me!!!

find a world for me

where everyone is free

free to say anything

to hear and to see!!

where his thoughts are his wings

and friends boast him to flee!!!

find a world for me

where true love is

neither physical nor romantic

an acceptance...of what it is

where my best friend lives in me...

the science of consciousness

and the act of thee

come with no bounds and limits

so when it comes to me

it is company...even in three!!!

find a world for me

where none is forced to see

to see what others want you

thrashing your dreams...sticking in glue

free 'em up and let them sigh

through soul harmony and not by eye!!

pour in the courage in every cry

dont be shy if you wanna fly

be ready to pay off anything to what it takes

till your last beat, beauty and grace

cause what you give

comes back to you

with smile and eye, fresh and new

....to free the one

who s locked in you!!